writing

I am an anxious person. Change heightens this anxiety. But with time I have learnt to talk to myself & tame this anxiety.

However, with AI, the pace of change can seem relentless. Every day there is a new model, a new pattern, a new strategy, and a new timeline for doom.

My strategy to tame anxiety is to take time and understand the root cause. And almost always the root cause reduces to a reptilian reaction to a misunderstood/unclear event or information. And then I would think about the event or information rationally and tame the anxiety. Of course, the reptilian nature of anxiety means that it would just come back. But then I had a script for how to tame it and slowly it would resolve itself.

However with AI - I have not yet discovered this script.

And that is okay. Sometimes it’s good to sit with the anxiety, examine its edges, its shape, its nature, and its effect. I do not try to control it - this usually does not work with emotions. I will sometimes try to distract myself but I know that distraction is only temporary. I do not yet have a script to reason with it. I guess it feels too large, too disruptive, too changeable.

I guess this is one of those things that I will have to learn to deal with. I will write about it when I have a script. But for now I am learning to live with it.